Tri Training Week 1

Monday - Swam 450m (over 30 min.)
Tuesday - Ran 3 miles (37 min.)
Wednesday - break
Thursday - 5am run with Matous - we'll see how that goes!

Long Weeks

So, I think this has been a couple of the longest weeks of my life. It has also been some of the most emotional and trying times of my career. There are so many things that I wish I had control over, but alas, I do not. More than anything I just wish I knew what was going to happen next year. I feel like my worth as a coach has been measured and found lacking, even without me having the opportunity to provide any input. It surprises me that people expect things to just be "business", when everything anyone does clearly has motive, which makes it personal. Someone wins and someone loses in most situations, so it is always personal to someone. I honestly don't know what direction to turn, but I feel like every time I try to make a change, I just get slapped in the face all over again. And, why are the people in charge so petty that they can't even look their teachers in the eye and explain anything. And they talk about being "unprofessional" - ha! All of this mess has definitely made me realize that I have absolutely no desire to be in administration, and I'm questioning my career in education. I dropped my master's class yesterday and requested to be withdrawn from the program. There is absolutely no need for me to spend the money to obtain a M.Ed. for any reason. I just wonder why the administration gets so caught up in forcing things to fit into this stupid puzzle at the price of losing good workers. I understand that there is a lot of work that goes into the logistics of it all, but at what cost? I seems to me that the priorities in our educational system need to be strongly reconsidered.

Flirty and flippy

So, apparently I am neither flirty nor flippy. Someone told me the other day that they didn't even know that I was interested in dating or marriage. Makes me kind of wonder what vibe I'm giving off?!


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Stuck

So, I feel like every aspect of my life right now is completely out of my control. I know that I have control issues, but this goes beyond that. I feel like I don't even have a choice in anything right now. I'm very frustrated and just stuck.
I'm not to a point where I'm ready to deal with any of it the "right" way. I want to be able to enjoy myself and enjoy my life, and I can't seem to get there. I over analyze everything to a point where nothing is enjoyable. I have a need to be multitasking whenever and wherever I am, just so that I am not wasting time. Why can I not just do what I want?! Why do I always have to consider everyone else?
I'm motivated and working towards some goals, but at the same time, I am questioning the worth of those goals... What is the point, really?


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Crappy week

Rough week last week... eating went to crap. Sleeping was crappy...
Overall, not a great week. Luckily, I get to start over tomorrow, so I need to eat some more of the sopapilla cheesecake tonight!

Joining Weight Watchers today...


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Working Out

So, I think I might be addicted to working out. As tough as it is to get going some days, it really feels like I forgot something if I don't work out. Finding time is still sometimes a challenge, but I'm doing it. Here's hoping this really is a lifestyle change, not just a passing phase!